ADMITTED
by Phillip Amerson
I admitted infidelity
Said it got the best of me
Something got the best of me
Truth, true are not the words you say
You see in how she looks away
When lies are all you seem to say
I, if I admit to what's become
Better if nothing's done
Carry on, carry on
Chorus
Once admitted on our own
Hide behind the best of me
So the rest of me stays unknown
Words, you choose your words so careful now
You must cause you know how
To use your words without a doubt
But I admitted helplessly
Something got the best of me
What about the rest of me
Chorus 2
Once admitted on our own
Hide behind the best of me
So the rest of me stays unknown
I admitted all my wrongs
Laid down the worst of me
So she could be left alone
Confused, make your own way through
I'm better for losing you
Than doing what I could not do
ANOTHER 24
by Kurt Johnson & Phillip Amerson
So long I’ve gone who knows how long
Another 24 ain’t doin’ it wrong
Where am I goin’ well who the hell knows?
Another 24 stumbles slow
Chorus
So when will my travels end?
And how can I hope for more?
And why, why do I ever try
When the future’s
Another 24
The sun sets high, the sky hangs low
Another 24 stumbles slow
While I’m kickin’ along this stony path
Another 24 unleashes its wrath
Chorus
So when will my travels end?
And how can I hope for more?
And why, why do I ever try
When the future’s
Another 24
ARRIÈRE
by Phillip Amerson
Green turning red
Things left unsaid
Lonely silhouette
One-half empty bed
Arrière
Has it been enough time yet
Is it too soon to forget
“I can't be what you wanted. I can live with regret.”
It is too soon to forget
Arrière, Arrière, Arrière
BACK FROM HEAVEN
by Phillip Amerson
So if misery loves company
Why am I so alone?
I cry every time I look to the sky
I wanna bring you back home
…bring you back from Heaven
Chorus
I’d tear down their walls
Kill the angels all
Trade paradise for hell
To bring you back from heaven
If it’s true that time is a friend of mine
Why do you seem like yesterday?
It’s so hard to breathe, drowning in memory
I wanna bring you back…
Chorus
I’d tear down their walls
Kill the angels all
Trade paradise for hell
To bring you back…
If love could reach through silver clouds
Fall to my knees, scream your name out loud
Chorus
Chorus
So then misery will have company
And we’ll be alone
BETTER
by Matt Day
So tell me what it is that has got us so far apart
It’s like the time you said, “So what, who cares,” that left me in the dark
And tell me how am I supposed to read between the lines
After a second thought you see the judgment call you made might not be right
Chorus
And you’re so much better
Even if you start to say
I can’t be any better
So why’s it have to be this way?
And tell me why did you always have to be picturesque?
Go put some makeup on, play your favorite song, and wear a little party dress
From a different view I can still see through all that you said to me
So find another one to have your fun with and hope that he never leaves
Chorus
That you’re so much better
Even if you start to say
I can’t be any better
So why’s it have to be this way?
…. and you’re so much better
BROKEN WING
by Phillip Amerson
Off the train in Memphis, he was drowned by the rain
No umbrella he needed, no need to hide from the pain
So her name came to memory, her face to mind
And his tears fell down from the sky
He could run all he wanted, she would never go away
Another place, another town, same face another day
He held on to her memories, held on to lies
Held on to the reason why
Chorus
With her could see over mountains
And he sailed over seas
But he can’t fly like an eagle
With a broken wing
He’d hoped for the courage, saved up for the day
When one last time he would see her of the things he would say
If only he could tell her, maybe she would know
This ain’t how love’s supposed to go…
He kept her old number next to a diamond ring
That lost its shine long ago, love hadn’t changed a thing
“I’m sorry sir there’s no one here by that name.”
It was funny how her voice still sounded the same
Chorus
With her could see over mountains
And he sailed over seas
But he can’t fly like an eagle
With a broken wing
Bridge
It still sounded the same
It still sounds the same
Some things will never change
Oh, it still sounds the same
Chorus
With her could see over mountains
And he sailed over seas
But he can’t fly like an eagle
With a broken wing
Chorus 2
And you know he’d throw life away
To spend one more day
And fly like an eagle
Without a broken wing
BUILT TO FALL
by Phillip Amerson
Stacking them high, only I know why
Protection from her behind the wall I hide
Sandbags and stones and leave me alone
Regaining control
Chorus
If you pray for rain the pain washes away
The strongest of stones cannot stand alone
The smallest doubt turns the inside out
You build to tall then you’re built to fall
Tomorrow is stained, the future the same
The next girl, the next girl I’ll keep away
Til one day I crack, she finds her way back
The water is rising, am I still intact?
Chorus
If you pray for rain the pain washes away
The strongest of stones cannot stand alone
The smallest doubt turns the inside out
You build to tall then you’re built to fall
Chorus II
And I prayed for rain the pain washes away
The strongest of stones could not stand alone
Smallest doubt turned my inside out
I built to tall then I’m built to fall
…Built to fall…
DOWNTRODDEN
by Phillip Amerson
Five AM comes again and his back already hurts
Puts yesterday's work pants on, tucks in a flannel shirt
Work boots by the door and he steps out to the cold
There’s more to do around here cause the farm’s a hundred years old.
He says, “No one else keeps this place up like I do.
Work at it everyday even when it gets you…”
Chorus
Downtrodden
Someone could lift me up
Downtrodden
Need a little pick me up
She worked all her life to make their house a home.
Cooked meals, paid the bills, treated me as their own,
Raised the boys to love the Lord and to know wrong from right.
Proud to lay next to him night after night after night.
She says, “No one else keeps this place up like I do.
Work at it everyday even when it gets you…”
Chorus
Downtrodden
Someone could lift me up
Downtrodden
Need a little pick me up
No one else keeps this place up like I do
Work at it everyday even when it gets you
Chorus
Downtrodden
Someone could lift me up
Downtrodden
Need a little pick me up
FALLEN
by Phillip Amerson and Andrew Hintz
I’m getting to the point of it all
I’m pulling out bricks, tearing downing walls
Leaving this place, stumbling off of my seat
Watching these people making pretend
We all have our needs, but it’s different when
Waiting at home is someone who’s perfect to me
Chorus
Maybe I’ve fallen (away)
Maybe I’ve fallen (closer to you)
I’ve fallen closer to you
Good morning my love
First thing she says
I touch her face…this must be place
Without opening her eyes she figured out how to
Climb all my walls, wake me up now
I’m picking up pieces and putting them back into place
Chorus
Maybe I’ve fallen (away)
Maybe I’ve fallen (closer to you)
I’ve fallen closer to you
FALLING OUT OF LINE
by Phillip Amerson
We painted our picture so perfect
We numbered ourselves so obviously
Tricks of light would never defect
But you’re a frame of a work I could not complete
Cause now I’m painting out the lines
Falling, falling, falling out of line
Next in line obey the command
Look straight ahead
Forget any last stand
Chorus
Falling, falling, falling out of line
Falling, falling, falling out of line
Foreshadow a popular story
Somewhere the hero is destined to save the girl from a fortress of lonely
He’s risking all on a love that he’s yet to make
But I’m not laying my life on the line
Falling, falling, falling out of line
Next in line obey the command
Look straight ahead
Forget any last stand
Chorus
Falling, falling, falling out of line
Falling, falling, falling out of line
Falling, falling, falling out of line
FOLLOW HIS HEART
by Phillip Amerson
The Greyhound bus opens her doors
To take him somewhere he’s never been before
Fourteen hours to clear his mind
Of a dead end life that he’s leaving behind
Chorus
Dreams are for dreamers
I’m not sleeping tonight
Hope’s for the hopeless
Not doin’ it right
Before he’s too far gone
Now’s a good time to start
He’s gonna follow his heart
He’s gonna follow his heart
Studied politics and threw four years away
Lost his heart in Paris, it’s still there today
Came back home and started over again
The same old town but not the same old him
Waited tables by day, a dead end job
Just like a stripper, a slave to the mob
If he walked away he’d never look back
Cannot work at this if you’re made for that
Chorus
Dreams are for dreamers
I’m not sleeping tonight
Hope’s for the hopeless
Not doin’ it right
Before he’s too far gone
Now’s a good time to start
He’s gonna follow his heart
He’s gonna follow his heart
The Greyhound bus opened her doors
And took him somewhere he’d never been before
In fourteen hours he cleared his mind
Of a dead-end life that he left behind
Chorus
FREALITY
by Phillip Amerson
So you’ve got your reasons
You’re coming undone
Feel your dreams break, you’re choking on heartache
So many reasons to run
We’ve all had our problems
We’ve all risen above
There’s no symmetry when dreams meet reality
So if you’ve had enough
Chorus
When reality collides
With the dreams you have in mind
Keep the freedom in your eyes
Freality defied
Are you choking on answers?
No questions allowed
It’s not a truce when the hand that feeds you
Is the hand that holds you down
Ever find yourself believing
That here is all there is?
If they tell you, “Son, no way that it can be done.”
You just scream, “I did, I did, I did”
Chorus
When reality collides
With the dreams you have in mind
Keep the freedom in your eyes
Freality defied
I AM THE BITTERSON
byPhillip Amerson
I am the Bitterson
Product of
The things I hate
The things I love
I am the Bitterson
A comprimise
I set the truth
Apart from lies
I am the Bitterson
Heaven sent
To pull you out
From the shit you’re in
I am the Bitterson
I BELIEVE (LIBERATE)
by Phillip Amerson
I’ve been given one life
Tryin’ my best to live it right
Give back more than what’s been given me
And I have bloodied my hands and skinned my knees
Workin’ 12 hour days 7 days a week
I’m not livin’ poor…I’m living free
Chorus
I believe the sun always rises
Showing me that I’ve made it through
Another day
Liberate
I can see over the horizon
Setting free, I’ll make it through
Another day
Liberate
There is nothing to show
Except apologies on folded notes
Words that are never meant, will never be
But I have steel for bones and scars for wounds
I never stopped believing what I knew was true
Threw back at them, what they threw at me
Chorus
I believe the sun always rises
Showing me that I’ve made it through
Another day
Liberate
I can see over the horizon
Setting free, I’ll make it through
Another day
Liberate
Bridge
Chorus
I believe the sun always rises
Showing me that I’ve made it through
Another day
Liberate
I can see over the horizon
Setting free, I’ll make it through
Another day
Liberate
I FOUND IN YOU
by Phillip Amerson
At the hands of never
But we should’ve seen forever
Her voice is still demanding
A promise is outstanding
Why should we tomorrow
When we could today?
Forced to beg and borrow
But what I needed to say was,
Chorus
True
All I wanted was you (you)
All I needed was time (time)
And time would prove you were mine (mine)
All I wanted was you and nothing else
More than life, I bleed myself
All I ever wanted I found in you
This game has burned me out
Filled me up with doubt
I cannot contemplate
This lust cannot wait
I fill it up inside
A secret I confide in you
Want not wait insane
And play the foolish game
Chorus x2
True
All I wanted was you (you)
All I needed was time (time)
And time would prove you were mine (mine)
All I wanted was you and nothing else
More than life, I bleed myself
All I ever wanted I found in you
INFANTILE
by Phillip Amerson
Now I’m starting to find
What was here all the time
Either you do or don’t ask why
Do or die
No more tries
There’s no consolation prize
Chorus:
Hey
Wait
Stay
This way forever
Infantile
Infantile
She is starting to go
The light is starting to show
And I don’t want to live this way
To crave
The shade
Of a shadow never made
She is begging to leave
Try to take it seriously
Am I giving what she needs?
I breathe
Conceit
And I’m crying hysterically
…. crying hysterics
Chorus x2
Hey
Wait
Stay
This way forever
Infantile
Infantile
LONG WAY AROUND
by Phillip Amerson
I am ready for the new fight
Drop my bags and get light
Settle in for a long night
Of recovery
I have settled on a new plan
Tomorrow morning I’m a new man
Lay the bottle down and here I’ll stand
Discover me
Chorus
It’s a long way around
From where I’ve been to where I’m bound
The long way around for me
I have found myself a new book
Every morning I take a look
It’s full of liars, thieves, whores, and crooks
Just like me
They all settled on a new plan
Put their trust into one man
If they can do it I know I can
Discover me
Chorus
It’s a long way around
From where I’ve been to where I’m bound
The long way around for me
Chorus
It’s a long way around
From where I’ve been to where I’m bound
The long way around for me
All my friends and my family
Almost gave up on me
That’s how beautiful life can be
Life can be a…
Chorus
READY TO SUFFER
by Phillip Amerson
Hear me out
I’ve come to show I’m sorry
Belief and doubt
You have no need to worry
All my ways
Have only led me here
To face my fears
Chorus
I’m ready to suffer
Ready to feel what I’ve never known
Ready to lay out
All my pain and all I owe
Don’t you believe me now
I’m ready to be a martyr
Ready to suffer
Ready to go
I can try
I can make this better
Clear the air
Find some sunny weather
Take some time
And never again, never again
I’ve said it before
Chorus
I’m ready to suffer
Ready to feel what I’ve never known
Ready to lay out
All my pain and all I owe
Don’t you believe me now
I’m ready to be a martyr
Ready to suffer
Ready to go
Chorus
I’m ready to suffer
Ready to feel what I’ve never known
Ready to head out
On my way all alone
Don’t you believe me now
I’m ready to be a martyr
I’m ready to suffer
Ready to go
SHE'S MY ONLY PROOF
by Phillip Amerson
She, she’s my only proof
That I may be alive
Without her it’s tough to survive
Hey (hey) I thought I heard her say
She thinks of me the same way
Chorus
An answer to your question
What you gonna do
She’s my hand up
I solemly swear I’m tellin’ the truth
Asking for direction
Head out to somewhere new
She’s my only, she’s my only proof
Mine, thought I’d make her mine
Today forever all time
Now stand up boy and walk that line
See, thought I heard her say
She wants from me the same thang…
Chorus
An answer to your question
What you gonna do
She’s my hand up
I solemly swear I’m tellin’ the truth
Asking for direction
Head out to somewhere new
She’s my only, she’s my only proof
….She, she’s my only proof
STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STORM
by Phillip Amerson
There’s a change in the weather
Whether you are here
Rain clouds my intentions
Words are never clear
Chorus
Cloudy on the inside
Sunny on the outside
We should be forewarned
Cloudy on the inside
Sunny on the outside
Stuck in the middle of the storm
The storm’s on the horizon
Winds are pushing past
Shelter in the comfort
This will never last
The wreckage left is drifting
Either way we choose
The aftermath is cleansing
Either way we lose
… Either way we lose…
Chorus
Cloudy on the inside
Sunny on the outside
We should be forewarned
Cloudy on the inside
Sunny on the outside
Stuck in the middle of the storm
Chorus II
Dyin’ on the inside
Tryin’ on the outside
We should be forewarned
Cryin’ on the inside
Lyin’ on the outside
Stuck in the middle of the storm
THE CROSSFIRE
by Phillip Amerson
She doesn’t think there’s anything out there
More than lies and apologies
The search for truth is a thousand directions
This one real, this one make believe
The temperature is high
The burning grows strong
Lied to herself all along
Chorus
She turns away, away from the crowd
Can’t back down, there’s no way out
She’s been caught in the crossfire
Between a cross around her neck
And a liar
Undo the chain, undo the suspicion
Faith is found in her daily routine
Every night there’s another admission
Every morning there’s another defeat
The temperature is high
The burning grows strong
Lied to herself all along
Chorus
She turns away, away from the crowd
Can’t back down, there’s no way out
She’s been caught in the crossfire
Between a cross around her neck
And a liar
Does believing mean compromising?
Faith and truth, is there nothing more?
They don’t help ‘cause tonight she’s still lonely
The greatest of loves that’s what she’s hoping for…
The temperature is high
The burning grows strong
Lied to herself all along
Chorus
She turns away, away from the crowd
Can’t back down, there’s no way out
She’s been caught in the crossfire
Between a cross around her neck
And a liar
… She’s been caught….In the crossfire
WHEN LOVE FINDS YOU
by Phillip Amerson
You’re allowed to die again
Give up, never try and win
I try to release
You’ll try to die again
Cause you’ve never been loved
No you’ve never known love
Could you ever be loved?
Will you ever find love?
Chorus I
When love finds you, you won’t be true
Pretend believe, pretend for me
When love finds you
You have searched and you have found
Heartbreak made a comfort sound
You’ve begged me please,
“Put me out, put me down”
Cause you’ve never been loved
No you’ve never known love
Could you ever be loved?
Will you ever find love?
Chorus II
When love finds you, you won’t be true
Pretend believe, pretend for me
When love finds you, you won’t run through
Motions abstain, emotions mean pain
When love finds you